you look like the rest of my life.

Last semester of senior year, I was inspired to finish strong and continue growing old and new relationships! I had no intentions of dating anyone at MVNU, but had all the desire to make good friends and live life to its fullest. This is when I made a few new, life long buds. These friends were kind, hilarious, weirdos, enjoyable to be around, and always up for adventure. This group of friends somehow became known as the "becky's", which was a joke I made that basically stood for us sometimes acting like annoying basic white girls (yea, don't ask, I said we were weird). Guillermo was in this group & quickly became a very close friend to me, and I planned to keep it that way. I had been told by others that they sensed he had a crush, but I refused to believe it or address it because the last thing I wanted was a good friendship to feel awkward (especially if I had to tell him the feelings were not so mutual). We continued to have a great semester and Guillermo continued to be a fun-loving friend that I knew I didn't want to lose. That being said, we both continued to be intentional with keeping in touch during the summer because I knew that I loved being around him and didn't want our friendship to grow distant. And it worked! Because our friendship did just the opposite. I was a little annoyed at myself when I realized that this person I "friendzoned" had easily become someone I wanted to share all my moments with and become closer with. I felt very seen, I was laughing nonstop, and I could always be myself with him. I ended up confessing in a letter while he was at camp all of his qualities that I liked and how much I appreciated that he remained a great friend and was so patient while pursuing me. 3 years later, I can't imagine not having this guy as a best friend.

The way that I met Rachel was through a mutual friend in college who introduced us to one another. After this interaction, we started to hangout in groups together on a more consistent basis. I quickly started to heavily catch feelings for Miss Dixon due to the fact that she was so easy to get along with and she made me laugh so hard and so often that one can't help but to feel safe in those happy moments. With this, she is such a free spirit and always full of joy and has such a passion to further pursue her relationship with Christ. She was a magnet and I was the metal, and thus I had such a high attraction to her. Unfortunately, Rachel did not have those same feelings that I had and I didn't want to ruin the great friendship that we had established so I didn't tell her of my feelings.. I just tried to make it as evident as possible, lolz. Since she was two years older than me, she graduated college and I was unsure of what our friendship/relationship would be like. So I did everything I could to talk with her everyday after graduation in order to keep the relationship going. I never met such an adventurous soul who is down for anything at anytime and I am so happy that I was patient through it all because one of the greatest feelings in the world was when she told me she had the same feelings for me mid-summer (and I still remember that feeling to this day, yuuh). I am blessed to have built such a strong relationship with ray and could not be happier of where our lives are heading. Every time I hangout with her, I continue to fall more in love and it really is a great feeling knowing that I get to spend the rest of my earthly life with my best friend. <3