Have you ever heard that song by Lizzo titled "Cuz I Love You?" If you haven't (you're missing out) there's a specific line in the song that absolutely resonates with my feelings about Matthew and my feelings about my feelings for him: "I thought that I didn't care. I thought I was love-impaired. But baby, I don't know what I'm gonna do - I'm crying 'cause I love you." Anyway, love came on our third date at White Rock Lake where I fell sickeningly in love with Matthew. He was open minded, patient and nurturing - everything I wasn't and everything I needed. Almost 2 years later he still gives me the same butterflies he gave me at White Rock and I seem to fall more and more in love with him.

I was a fuck boi tryna get my dick wet but this girl wouldn't let me hit so I made it my mission to hit. fucked up and fell in love instead. now I hit when I want and we in love and shit. win win imo.