Josh: "Picture it: March 2020. The year was young and full of promise. We matched on Tinder on March 10 and decided to go on a date on the 16th. Then, in the blink of an eye, shutdowns everywhere on the 17th." Collin: "Josh and I matched on Tinder on March 10th, 2020. I had no idea he was about to become as important to me as the CDC guidelines."
Collin's Side of the Story We had been dating for a while before either of us said the "L word." One night we had just finished a date at my apartment, and I walked Josh down to his car. It was a lovely, crisp, clear night in Ogden as we stood on Washington Avenue and talked. I was SO nervous to say those three words, but I couldn't let him leave without saying them. After a long hug, I told him I loved him. Pause. Looonnngggg pause. What did he say back, you ask? He asked, "Big L, or little L?" I was a little thrown for a loop, and nervous for his answer. I was absolutely sure he was going to reciprocate and say something to the effect of, "I love you, too!" No such luck. Instead, I got a glimpse into the serious, intentional, and thoughtful side of him all wrapped up in his small question. #swoon I supposed I could wait a little longer for an answer. "I told him, 'Big L.' He told me he little L loved me, and that the big L would come later, with time. A few weeks later he was at a wedding in Oregon. He called me after the ceremony and told me how beautiful it was, and shared some words from the bride's vows. He was moved, and, through tears, told me he Big L loved me. At long last! We cried. It was beautiful. So, yeah, I guess you could say I said it first! Josh's Side of the Story Yes, it's true... He did say it first. When he told me he loved me, I knew that I cared for him, he made me feel safe and happy, and that I loved being around him him (Little L) but I didn't know if I was in love with him (Big L). Later on, while at a friend's wedding in Oregon, I was moved by my friend's words and then felt myself looking for Collin and wishing that he was there with me. I felt - undoubtedly and unshakably - Big L love in my soul. As soon as I could, I ran to a private spot on the beach to call Collin and tell him. I couldn't wait another moment to tell him. So I called him and, through tears, I told him that I Big L love him.