We met online via dating site for Widows/Widowers. Joel sent me a message first and I answered but didn't really give him much thought because I was already sort of interested in another guy I met online but Joel and I were to be friends only. Joel led a very interesting life as a contracted position and he couldn't really tell me anything about himself. I'm thinking this guy is weird, I ask questions and he answers me with a question about me. So not getting anywhere with this guy but he was nice and he told me he lost his wife about 5 years prior and had 4 children but unfortunately a son died in a motorcycle accident. So he has 2 sons & 1 daughter surviving. My heart went out to him as I know what it feels like to lose your beloved. We kept corresponding & found out that we both love golfing and a love for cooking. So we challenge each other to a cook off one day to see who is the better cook. Now I'm thinking, "Aw, I got this guy as he couldn't possibly cook that well as men can do grilling but that's about it"....well to my surprise Joel is continuing to keep this challenge alive & he is getting me upset because he is actually taunting me. So now I'm thinking maybe he is a cook or had background as a professional chef. But Joel isn't sharing any real information about his pass due to security. So we continue to talk and I'm starting to feel more than friends with him but don't want him to know this. Then one day he writes me and tells me he knows we shouldn't be but he has fallen in love with me. I tried to just brush this off like a bad comment & ignore it. But then, I couldn't get him out of my mind, constantly thinking of him, my head gets dizzy& my stomach was feeling weird whenever I thought about him. So later that day I said to him why am I feeling like this & he said he knew but wasn't going to tell me. I knew it but didn't want to admit it as I wasn't supposed to fall in love with Joel. From that moment on, I knew he was my soulmate.

I almost lost Joel the love of my life on this date. Joel went out on his last mission and had a gut feeling that something was wrong and sure enough, my Sweetheart was injured on his last mission. My heart stopped and felt my world stopped. I cried and couldn't figure out what was wrong because I had not heard from Joel but there was no indication that he was injured. Sure enough, Joel sent me a message that he was injured and would be transferred soon to a field hospital. I was happy to hear from him but very scared to have almost lost him. I prayed and asked our Father God to please help Joel recover as quickly and full as possible. My prayers were answered as Joel is well today.

Here we stand today Like we always dreamed Starting out our life together Light is in your eyes Love is in our heart I can't believe you're really mine forever Been rehearsin' for this moment all my life So don't act surprised If the feeling starts to carry me away On this day I promise forever On this day I surrender my heart Here I stand, take my hand And I will honor every word that I say On this day Not so long ago This earth was just a field Of cold and lonely space Without you Now everything's alight Now everything's revealed And the story of my life is all about you So if you feel the cool winds blowing through your nights I will shelter you I'm forever here to chase your fears away On this day I promise forever On this day I surrender my heart Here I stand, take my hand And I will honor every word I say On this day Oh, I been rehearsin' for this moment all my life So don't act surprised If the feeling starts to carry me away On this day I promise forever On this day I surrender my heart Here we stand, like I planned Please say you'll always look at me this way Like on this day On this day