At a time where I counted out love for the next five years, the Lord spoke a word to me with my friends as my witness, that this next one would be the one and it would be fast. This message faded quickly from my memory. One day after church John and my soon to be sister in love came up to me and my friend Mardocha to introduce themselves and threw some hints that went way over my head. From then on John and I would have short conversations that transferred over to Facebook (because I was too scared to give my phone number) then eventually to texts. Then from texts to our first phone call that lasted 4 hours. I had to freeze right there and go to my prayer closet. Our first official conversation lasted 4 hours AND I enjoyed every second of it. I quickly entered a fast and prayer because this was different. There are truly so many details this section is not enough but long story short through counsel, some crazy confirmations, and revelations. I finally gave John a chance. Each step we made, I gave John a pretty hard time (I'm sorry my love). It would be 6 months before we went on our first date. I often get asked why I was so hesitant and scared. At first I thought it was because I was broken and scared to enter into a relationship and if John was someone I could trust. Then I began to realize that my questions began to transform. At first it was "What if I he cheats?" or "What if his family hates me?". Then it turned into "What if I were to let him go?", "Could I really live without him?". Why the shift? There are two answers. I'll save the best for last. The first is John. There were three things I told God that I did not want and John was all three. Haitian, Younger, and in my Church. But getting to know John I realized he is exactly what I needed. John is so loving, intelligent, and endearing. He always thinks of those around him and strives for greatness always. He sees me. He looks to understand me. He pushes me past limits. He loves me and most importantly he loves Jesus more than anything. His story is a bit different. Apparently he knew all along. Lastly. My best answer is Jesus. He allowed me to understand what it is to heal and the importance of inner healing. It goes beyond what happened to you. True healing is in the arms of your Savior. Jesus picked me up and spoke to me in a time that seemed so dark. He restored joy and hope in my soul. I do not have everything this world has to offer because I do not need it. Jesus has been and will always be enough. He is what I needed. He knew what I needed and need. He knew all along.