After our engagement party Jake & I sat in the car & he asked me how I was feeling. The only word that I could think of was safe. I’ve done just about everything the wrong way & backwards when it comes to relationships so this moment was redemptive. I, like every little girl have always dreamed of the day that a man would get down on one knee & ask me to spend the rest of my life with him- but as I grew older, the hope of that had diminished. In my early 20’s I settled for less then God’s best because I wasn’t willing to wait. I felt like being single meant I wasn’t worth loving. After I came back to the Lord, for the first time in my life, I decided to commit to singleness. But even so. I couldn’t see how God had something great in store for me because 1. I didn’t see it right away (or when my friends were experiencing it) & 2. I didn’t see why God would give me something great because of my past- I didn’t deserve it. How could someone love me with all of my baggage? How could I find a man with a big enough car to put it in? When I didn’t feel it, I would remind myself of the promises God had for me. About a month before I started dating Jake I wrote a list of qualities I wanted in a man, the biggest one, was that I wanted a man who had a heart for foster & adoption because I knew that was a call on my life. Jake & I saw eachother here and there & after a few days of dming lol. I ended up helping in a ministry he was interning in. I had a feeling he was interested in me so I asked him what he was passionate about- I wanted to know who he was & what he was about. He said, “ I don’t really know exactly but I really love foster kids.” That was it for me. <3 Jake is truly better then anything I could’ve ever dreamed & as cheesy as it is, it’s hard to believe there’s isn’t “the one” because he’s the perfect one for me. I can’t wait for a life time of serving God & people alongside of him.