IYKYK…but if you don’t, we met when we were lil youngins thinkin we grown, circa 2013. Well, I was around his family before then, but I was too shy to even notice anyone, including him. Going to his mom’s house for family gatherings with my best friend Odalis, became more regular as I got older. Oscar is Odalis’s cousin. They accepted me right away into their family. Finally, I was forced to meet him, as Odalis and her brother will go in Oscar’s room to make or listen to music. His room was filled with recording equipment, vinyls, Houston culture, nerd things, & rebel teen common aesthetic. I was intrigued right away. There are lots of compiled moments where he would be around more and more. Popping fireworks in their backyard by the ditch on new years, rap studio sessions- the making of SpaceCityLordz. I found myself wanting him to be around Odalis and I regularly. We clicked immediately, specially with the fact that we both love Coheed and Cambria. So many memories in my Honda civic, jamming to Coheed with Oscar and Odalis. Driving around in his Cadillac, holding each other, was one of my favorite pastimes. He accepted my weirdness and shyness completely. I felt incredibly seen and safe to be myself. We could talk for hours, or be wrapped in each other’s arms in silence. We were stuck like glue to each other. Couldn’t get enough time together. I finally felt my love reciprocated. We were together only for a few months, we couldn’t be together at that time and most people know why and what happened. But that was the first time, I was actually falling in love. I moved to Washington a few years later, leaving those memories and emotions behind me thinking I’ll never move back to Houston. In 2024, I moved back to Houston. A lot has happened in between, before, and after. May of this year, Oscar and I saw each other again for the first time in over 10 years. I didn’t know how I would feel, but I knew I was excited to see him. As I approached the door, he was coming out ready to leave. He was delighted to see me as I reach out to give him a handshake, he grabs me and says “give me a hug dude!”. I couldn’t stop laughing that night with him. It’s ridiculous how much he makes me laugh. I recently at that time just started listening to a couple of artists and was curious what he was listening to nowadays. He says “Clara La San”. Immediately I’m like “NO WAY ME TOO”. Our eyes were locked while everything else around us disappeared as we continued to talk about music. Before I left I said, “you better listen to the song Water by bicep ft Clara La San”. The lyrics to the song goes perfect to that night. A lot has changed in our lives as adults and within ourselves, but one thing remains is our love for each other. I never expected this to happen, and I want to thank you all for celebrating this with us. Love yall

I can remember spinning vinyls, in my room, in the garage at my parents house. It was the holidays. I was 16 the first time I saw her, I just couldn't keep my eyes off her. My room was next to the front door, so I couldn't miss it as she chimed in. I didnt know how to act. Even more i couldn't help my self, giving into the want to be around her, even though she made me so nervous. That was every time she was around. I never could work up the courage to tell her how much I liked her. I never got to tell her how she made me feel when we were kids. Never knowing how she felt either. One year she didn't come around like she usually did, I always looked forward to it. It made me so sad that she wasn't there any more. That I couldn't see her smile. 3 years went by, I was someone else, and was also with someone else. Minding mine. I was iron working with my uncle, and had joined a local band. We needed a photographer. I asked my cousin odalis to help out. My claudet was always glued to her, Thats how she came back into my life, I couldn't fight the feelings she made me feel when I was around her. This time around, i would let her know.. As bad as it was,  I dropped what I had. I let go, and fell hard for her. When I'm around her I lose sense of time, it goes by swiftly. Every moment with my claudet, was amazing... I regret nothing in this life. Except how I went about things when it came to me and her. I had made certain choices, that would end up causing me to leave her side. More than a decade went by, the idea of what was us drowned out by life, and the errors I have made. Deep down I always missed her and what could have been, things with my beautiful baby girl... I would always carry that with me.. one day, I was at my mothers house for our yearly crawfish boil. The night was coming to an end. I was anxious, I had gotten up to leave. I threw away my trash and kissed my parents and folks Goodnight and Goodbye. I Held my head low, like I was doing. Made my way to the front yard, looked down to the door nob and turned it; I closed the door behind me. But it was different. The sound of it all, the lighting, the air. I picked my head up and there she was. It was the last thing I would ever expect. I rushed to her; riddled with anxiety. Only wanting to hold her, but time had done its thing. I greeted her, knowing what always was. I pulled her in close, I wanted her to feel me, we pulled away and I told her I'd be right back. I pretend to grab something from my car and head back into the house, this time walking and talking with my head up high, and I stayed longer. Was I in over my head? NOT thinking clearly? All the signs that night said different. The uncontrollable urge for her was there again. I tried but could not resist. I chased her this time around... I'll do it to the end of the earth. I am not perfect, but she damn sure makes me feel like it. I was deep in my ways, and had never wanted to change, now I continue doing so. The 3rd times the charm