From having dreams of Christian in 2015, to marrying him now in 2024. What a journey it has been! There are not many things that render me speechless, but this has been something I find myself losing vocabulary over. I wish I could confidently say that I always knew it was Christian. I didn't. At least not fully. The Lord called me to be Christians intercessor back in June 2015. Before I had formally met him, the Lord gave me a dream & wanted me to encourage him in his walk. I did. God continued to give me dreams about Christian in quiet. After gaining Gods heart for Christian, my own heart began to shift. I found myself enjoying him more and more. Wishing he was apart of whatever gathering was happening at the time. I would see the way he surrendered to Jesus. I remember there was a specific moment that altered my perspective from, "I know God's heart for this boy and I love him because God loves him." to "There is a likely chance that the boy the Lord has called me to pray for, is my future husband." People would ask me if I was interested in anyone, and I would sometimes share how Christian held attributes of a good husband. I admired him for that. Most times though, I denied having any interest. Even in moments I would deny it, people would ask me what I thought about Christian as if there weren't other options for people to court. One can only imagine how much that fed my interest even more. That people could see how well we'd compliment each other, not even knowing the role God was having me play in his life behind the scenes. In 2016 our jobs, ministry, and our communities began to differ. We no longer saw each other often, and after a few awkward encounters with Christian where i was stumbling on my words and choking, I came to the conclusion that he knew my feelings towards him and he was avoiding me because of it. Hint: He was completely oblivious lol. Through the years God always reminded me of the connection I had. I tried to forget it. I tried to convince myself that the lines got blurred between what I was called to do & what my heart wanted. Again, people would continue to tell me that my husband was in the church. I would deny it every chance I got. And 99.9% of me believed it. However, that .1% was holding on to Christian. I knew that if there was anyone the Lord had for me in our church home, it would have to be Christian. There was no one else I would settle for. In 2019, the Lord began showing me how I was holding on to my singleness too tight. I enjoyed my freedom and being available to the Lord whenever He needed me. However, something in my spirit knew that was about to shift, and God was bringing my husband...
I had an unshakeable belief that God was holding someone very special for me until the right time. So I never pursued any women, from 18 years of age until I was nearly 25. I made God my only focus for those 7 years, and in that time he transformed me into a strong, God-fearing man. In 2019, when I turned 24, I felt like it was time to start searching for my wife and so that is what I did. I started praying for a wife and keeping my eyes out, hoping that God would bring her along. And then one day, my church was having a Valentine’s Day dinner for the single folks. I thought this dinner was a cheesy idea, but I figured, the Bible says, “those who seek shall find.” And so i went to the event, thinking to myself, “maybe God might bring the person for me to this event.” And won’t you know, that is exactly what happened! I was sitting down at my table waiting for the event to start, and in walks this stunningly gorgeous woman who was just glowing as soon as she walked in the door. She captured my attention immediately and I believe something shifted in my heart at that very moment. It was like everyone disappeared for those 5 seconds except for me and her. It was Saesha. From that day forward, I started praying that if Saesha was the one that God desired for me to be with, that he would open up an opportunity for us to develop a friendship. After plenty of prayer, I decided to pursue her older brother Edwin to ask for his permission to pursue his little sister Saesha. He said yes! That was a very important step for me. About a week later,I didn’t waste any time in going after Saesha. As soon as an appropriate opportunity presented itself, I walked right up to her and said confidently and straightforward, “Saesha, I like you. And I would like to pursue you in a friendship to see if we could become something more than friends. What do you think about that?” She thought about it for 3 seconds and replied with a smile on her face, “I would like that.” Ladies and Gentlemen, the rest is history!!! It is now 4 years later, and we are getting married! We in LOOOOOVE.